(Don’t mean to whine and complain; just need to get something off my chest. I don’t really care if no one reads it.)
I don’t normally want to make big deals out of things like this to avoid people thinking I’m some sort of possessive lunatic, but there comes a time where something can only be pushed too far, and the outcome is not that of being a possessive lunatic, but someone genuinely disappointed.
Over the years, I’ve learned not to automatically assume that people have a grasp of common sense or courtesy, but I guess when you expect the most in people, you let things slip.
For years, I’ve been left hung out to dry in ways that people always preferred others in my stead, for whatever reason. I’m always readily available and have never had many friends or social events on my calender, so I guess my friends can be slightly fair-weather when it comes to me.
The past few days haven’t been that good in this sense. One in particular was at my own prom. I’m not very into formal gatherings. I don’t like wearing dresses, or putting on makeup. But I knew that I should have at least gone to experience prom. Unfortunately, for one reason or another (most likely the food mixed with the strong bass vibrating in my stomach) I wasn’t feeling well, which is probably why people went off to have their fun without me. I understand that. I was trying to hold on and make sure I wasn’t being a suck and ruining my friends’ time. At one point, I had asked my friends to come out with me since the loud bass was making me feel even worse, and they understood and joined me outside the main room. But then a song they enjoyed played and they told me they would be back after the song. I nodded and told them I would wait where I was. But they never came back.
I’m just tired of people telling me they’re going to come back, or come to join me after something, and then never even have the decency to contact me and let me know there’s a delay or a change of plans. Maybe I’d feel more open to having more friends if people acted this way.
Am I just old fashioned? Does common courtesy not exist anymore?